Tonight I refuse to obsess about purples. You see my life's work as a family therapist has taught me that grief is full of anger. Anger displaced on other things. Anger that is irrational. I know that the grief process is not under control of mortals like me and I know that everyone grieves differently. Ha ha...says I, in the desperation of trying to be in control of something!!! And, I cannot even control my purples. Do I philosophize and decide that I am angry with my purples for disappearing, or do I just get on with it.
My decision tonight is a good one, in MHO.
Tonight I finished reading two books...finally!!!
Learning to Fall is a book written by a man with ALS...It is a philosophy on life As he struggles to stay in the moment and not project an unpleasant future, he says, "I want my eternal life now, before it is over with". Good one!! So do I.
The other book I just finished is, The Anatomy of Hope: How People Prevail in the Face of Illness.
This was a fascinating book for my field...but I no longer have my business. I am retired. Instead of the therapist, I am the client..not by any choice of mine.
Both of these books are excellent for the detached reader. But, for the intimately involved, the hindrance is an emotional attachment.
And so, it took me forever and forever to finish these books.
Now, I am going to now be my own client. I am going to read light novels and quilting magazines, clearing my brain and my heart for what is now and what is to come.
So hard for me to make the switch. The idea of Thelma smiling in the cracker aisle will help. Why read so seriously?? I can control nothing, so I might as well laugh and enjoy and sew.
So hard for me to make the switch. The idea of Thelma smiling in the cracker aisle will help. Why read so seriously?? I can control nothing, so I might as well laugh and enjoy and sew.
Therefore, I have just finished chopping all the purples that I selected into five inch charms...whack, whack...mmmm
Serenity!!!!
Like I said, I seem to be able to control Nothing!!!
