Thursday, January 29, 2015

Seriously.....??

Finally...a finish...So happy..This is rare at my house now-a-days..
 A gift of love...dropped on my porch with a cherry cake...made and gifted by Kathy.
One for my overwhelmed sister and one for her overwhelmed sister.
Thank you Kathy...so beautiful!!  They made us cry..we were so touched.
 Seriously....Really? 
 Must I keep  looking at fabric sales when fabric is pouring out of my shelving already???
It is so calming to look at fabric sales online.
 Guilty me!!...but it is sooo soothing..Getting new little bits now and then..
Getting a laugh here...
 And having a bright day here....
Well,  Mother has passed, my husband has a terminal illness, I am 100 years old...so,
why is it still so hard to use my favorite fabric..?
Eg..those lovely kangaroos that Beth sent me, or fabric I have saved forever..
On the pinwheel quilt just finished, the binding is about 20 years old and the new baby quilt I am starting has a background from Mae's discount fabric in Miami...even older!
.Something wrong here?...Is it really ok to pat it and love it and have a stash to admire in times of grief...
Or am I a total nut case...Do not answer this question, please....
My  Darling man is so stable that his stubbornness has returned...Ha!
  Of course, it is that very thing that  keeps him alive.
He is wearing his Trilogy 8 hours a night now!!! Yahoooo!
Now, he is refusing to wave to the camera to show the world how well he is doing.
But, then..maybe he just doesn't want to miss a shot of the latest tennis on TV.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

The Way of the Day


 Today I took care of myself.  I really did...First stop...the pool for water exercises...seeing all my good pool friends gave me joy...Of course I returned the pants I stole from an unwitting newcomer..ha!!  She said I could keep them...hilarious..She said that she had to squeeze into my old ones...so I gave her a little present...one of the small zippy purses...She was happy..I was happy.
  I checked out her T-shirt..but I was not interested...ha ha..Don't I love my own jokes!!
Next stop, Hobby Lobby..for Quilty magazine with my 40% off coupon.  Hobby Lobby is the last store to allow coupons on magazines..as far as I know...and then...
Senior Day at the Goodwill:)  25% off..
Voila an African 100% cotton dress...(made in Pakistan????)
I could not wait to wash it and cut it up.  Then our CNA wanted it to wear...but, oh, no..selfish me would not part with fabric...a $2 bargain...my heart!!
                                              $1.50 for someone's old basket that I do not need.
 Next stop..an antique store...look at my treasure..a vintage candle holder..
I am looking for a re-purposing use in my sewing room...any suggestions??
 75% off of Christmas...an ornament..or a doll buggy for a dollhouse..Lynsey will be 6 soon!!
Lunch with a dear friend...and a nap..
A perfect day.  I decided not to feel guilty for my Dear Man, lying there paralyzed with his feeding tube.
He does not want me to hover, he has great care with his CNAs.
Katie's tutoring is helping Evan blossom!!
And a surprise present for my sister and I found on the porch from Kathy..feeling so loved.
I did not cry all day..
.My darling is back alive with pink cheeks watching the Australian Open with Evan on a stool beside him, while I cut a binding. 
We are together...
We are making the best of our situation.
xxoo

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Cranky Mama Bear has an outing

Here we are...at Sit and Sew...laughing and having fun!!
 (well actually,without the S girls, not so much)
Eating and gossiping and sewing away...
Happy Birthday Eithne...my present to you...a charm pack of Irish fabric specially cut by me for you!!
So why am I a crabby lady, you ask???  I think it is adrenaline withdrawal...
Being so high to handle the crises of the past few days, coming back from the station with no trains of any sort in sight.  
Sometimes we crash even when the news is good!!!
You see, I was not willing to take the Hospice nurses at their word and I called the ALS nursing supervisor.  She is the one who said it was CO2 poisoning and that he needed the Trilogy machine. 
 The others said it was disease process and end of life...etc.etc...
No wonder I am having mood swings...Jeeze Louize..
Well, since Himself decided to wear the Trilogy 3 hours a day, his cheeks are back rosy, his voice has improved and he is watching sports again instead of hallucinating and sleeping. 
 I am so grateful
However, my Mama Bear energy has been drained leaving me crabby, in spite of the good stuff.
Brain dead me went to the pool the other day and came home wearing someone else's blue jeans...
Can you imagine...I put my hands in the pockets, only to realize that my jeans had no pockets. 
 Then it came to me that the other ladies were going out to lunch after the swim and one of them would have no pants to wear...OMG
Today after my sit and sew, I could not find my directions to a project..crab, grrrr...so I tried to start two new projects...what a mess.  This one for a single lady who just adopted a hard to place premature infant.  Since I am all about adoption, I just have to make them a baby quilt.
Then I decided that maybe I did not like that and should use these cute animals instead...
Change again...I did some quilting on this scrap quilt.
We all know that this time of night should mean bed..
Now going to put on Mr.O'Quilt's mask, give a kiss and go to bed. xxoo
Grrrr,  Can you hear the annoying grumble from crabby Mama Bear???????

Thursday, January 22, 2015

The Station Vacation

Definition  
Ileus is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction. It results when peristalsis stops. Peristalsis is the wavelike contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.
- See more at: http://medicine.med.nyu.edu/conditions-we-treat/conditions/ileus#sthash.SPG06OmC.dpuf
I feel so strong...I do not know why??  Who me??
However, Uncle Brendan said it is just adrenaline and that once this is over I will crash.
I think I had just better stay in the day and be grateful.
A big wonderful thanks to Mona for sending me some Florida sunshine!!!
 Speaking of Florida sunshine, Mr.O'Quilts brother, O'Brendan flew in today from Tampa to check things out here in Charlotte. (doesn't my dear man look good in pink)?
 A gratefulness to Kelly at http://ihaveanotion.blogspot.com/
for the Christmas presents..M&Ms from Ohio!!!! Gotta love the friendship!
Did I mention that Christmas in January is my favorite.
Himself now has an ileus.
(This is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction that results when peristalsis stops.  Peristalsis  is the wave- like contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.)  Many causes...but the one we know about..is from disorders that affect muscle function. ALS(:)
So he has been on Gatorade for two days and things are calming down..down there.
He looks 100% better, but reports that he does not feel better.

Definition  
Ileus is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction. It results when peristalsis stops. Peristalsis is the wavelike contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.
- See more at: http://medicine.med.nyu.edu/conditions-we-treat/conditions/ileus#sthash.SPG06OmC.dpuf
My IQ group did a Mexican lunch today..7 of us...laughing surely does make a difference.
A visit from O'Brendan is good too. And, Mona and Kelly.
I am so so so lucky
xxoo
Did I tell you how lucky I am??!!!

Definition  
Ileus is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction. It results when peristalsis stops. Peristalsis is the wavelike contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.
- See more at: http://medicine.med.nyu.edu/conditions-we-treat/conditions/ileus#sthash.SPG06OmC.dpuf

Definition  
Ileus is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction. It results when peristalsis stops. Peristalsis is the wavelike contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.
- See more at: http://medicine.med.nyu.edu/conditions-we-treat/conditions/ileus#sthash.7COQ4Yds.dpuf
Definition  
Ileus is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction. It results when peristalsis stops. Peristalsis is the wavelike contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.
- See more at: http://medicine.med.nyu.edu/conditions-we-treat/conditions/ileus#sthash.7COQ4Yds.dpuf
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Definition  
Ileus is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction. It results when peristalsis stops. Peristalsis is the wavelike contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.
- See more at: http://medicine.med.nyu.edu/conditions-we-treat/conditions/ileus#sthash.nEqXNRUR.dpuf
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Ileus pdf print

(Adynamic Ileus; Paralytic Ileus; Nonmechanical Bowel Obstruction; Ogilvie’s Syndrome; Colonic Pseudo-obstruction)  
En Español (Spanish Version)


Definition  
Ileus is a type of non-mechanical bowel obstruction. It results when peristalsis stops. Peristalsis is the wavelike contractions that help push stool through the colon and small bowel.
- See more at: http://medicine.med.nyu.edu/conditions-we-treat/conditions/ileus#sthash.nEqXNRUR.dpuf

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Waiting at the Station

Because this is Grand Central Station, it is hard to know just what is going on. 
.I am standing at the station wondering which train will be ours.
I remember when my mother took the wrong train. 
 She thoroughly enjoyed her own wake and lived another two years.
People in and out of our house all day long.
I put the visiting preacher man to work putting my blocks on the design wall.  
My design wall  happens to be in my husband's room.
A quilter just has to do what a quilter has to do!!!!
This quilting blog turned therapy blog is about to get a bit personal....Because his relatives all around the world are looking for the real deal....here are the real deal pictures..
Our son had a very good visit with his father today....preacher man was here, as was the Hospice nurse..
 The good news is that tonight my dear man has decided to wear the Trilogy breathing machine as suggested.
This should help determine the destination of the next train ride.  Here he is asleep with his Ativan and Morphine and breathing machine
Because of today's absolute fright...with catheter being inserted and food being replaced with Gatorade, and trauma and trauma, I called in to work, two caregivers, instead of one. 
 Mr. O'Quilts is now a two person assist for toileting and turning, etc.
Because of the help, I was able to go once again to take a break at lunch with my girl.
And... to make a pair of foxy pillowcases.
It is called personal balance, if there is something like that.
It is funny.  I have taken many a train myself from Grand Central Station,
 but never before have I not known which train would be coming.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

The New Deal

Today's self care regime for me.  Went to water aerobics, sat in the sun, had breakfast with my girl and finished sewing these 6 blocks for my Cotton and Steel deal.
 Then there is the Himself deal...
The head nurse at the ALS specialty clinic thinks that my dear man has CO2 poisoning...eg the weakened diaphragm muscles cannot support normal opening and closing of the lungs so that the CO2 cannot be pushed out normally..thus, sleepiness and mild hallucinations.
Apparently his body is now over saturated with CO2.
Using his Trilogy breathing machine could alleviate this.
  He has not used it for two weeks having felt claustrophobic and because of his choking reflex.
The clinic wants him back on the Trilogy for at least 3 hours a day.
So far, Himself refuses to don the mask.  
And the beat goes on..............

Sunday, January 18, 2015

Fudge Fixes Everything

Evan and I decided that this stressful evening was a perfect occasion to make Great-grandmother's 70 year old family fudge recipe...and in her old "fudge pan".I have had for 40 years.
  I am teaching the boy the family ropes...
Under stress, we all make fudge.  Fudge fixes everything...
 He has lined the buttered pan with marshmellows...I am boiling the chocolate.
As we waited and waited for the 5 min timer...Evan said...
"Grandma..you set the timer for 5 hours instead of 5 minutes..."!!!!  
Evan rescues Grandma, yet again!!!!
Ready in minutes...much better than Xanax!!
I finally stopped listening to my Beloved tonight.  I called the Hospice nurse anyway.
He came.  He said he has been a nurse for 25 years.  He said that the body was resting as it prepared for the "Final Journey"...and had we read that booklet.?  My love is hallucinating.  We had thought it was due to medication.  Nurse said that none of his present medications would cause this.  It is part of the journey.  He is detaching from the family...He wants to be left alone sleeping with his classical music on and with the lights on.  The nurse told us to up the Morphine and Ativan.  He cannot control his sleeping or his fatigue. 
 I told the nurse that he was telling us things that we did not want to hear. 
 He said that he would then tell us something we would like.  He said that because Himself was alert and responsive that we had time.  Time...time....time...

It is all about ...Today


The joy of quilting in Kinvara....You go Fiona!!!  Thank you for sharing.
It so delights me when Muldoon, International, and the family tree..get quilting.
Make me happy!!!!!

 I am sitting here ordering Aurifil on http://www.sewezdesigns.com/ 
Friends are going in on the ordering and the shipping...Of course I have to order extra, cuz when the eye candy comes, all will remember how much they really really needed Burnt Orange...lol 
Jean took Dylan for an outing...TBTG.  Taking just one child out of the mix makes things so much better. And, now there is no school both Monday and Friday....what are they thinking??
Things with my dear man are going from bad to worse in terms of his breathing and sleeping.
Every day I want to call the Hospice nurse and every day, he whispers no...wait till Monday for his own nurse, Angela.
I suppose with ALS, he could live like this for another year, or he could die tonight. I have a friend whose husband lay paralyzed for over a year, unable to move an eyelash...
I hate hate hate having no control.  And I hate hate hate ALS.
I so want to fix this.
I am looking through my sewing room window at beautiful Carolina blue skies and my pretty bottle tree.
The world just keeps keeping on...going on...despite adversity....
I am pinning some more blocks for Cotton and Steel...always remembering  American women are made of such stuff...Hopefully that includes me too.
I am on edge constantly waiting for the proverbial  other shoe to drop.
Evan has misplaced his finished blocks...so I think we will do a big do of sewing room organization together now.  Hmm  I see that he has taken out his own sewing machine and is setting it up...
There is some joy in Mudville today!
xxoo to my caring friends

Friday, January 16, 2015

Grace Unfolding


Today, from Gratefulness.org
Sometimes I go about pitying myself,
 and all the time I am being carried on great winds across the sky.
Chippewa
Wednesday I was well enough to host my quilting group as I have for the past 15 years.  I did not realize how much I had missed them...and the laughter and the friendship.
 Asthma is the pits!
They basted this scrap top for me...one step in a right sewing direction

Today, the sun came out after a week...Carolina blue skies... A very good thing!
Today, I am well..You were right Katie...10 days it took.  Another very good thing!.
I thought for special me, that it would only take 5 days to get better and not the 10 like other mortals.
Grey is a shade, what is grim?
The sad and scary note, is that my dearly beloved is entering into Stage 3 of ALS.
Stages of ALS
He has been sleeping in his hospital bed for four days.  Great fatigue and sleepiness.
At first we thought it was because he kept asking for his Ativan to be doubled so he would not have anxiety...Believe me, I would be all for that!!!.
 But, the Hospice nurse said this morning that he was still on quite a low dosage.
She feels that his body is just tiring out.
Accepting life on its own terms instead of what I want it to be... is my struggle.
Thank you!! Thank you!! Thank you!!
For your emails, your comments, your gifts of love.
Without you, I would be quite unable to see the light.
xxoo

Saturday, January 10, 2015

The sun is peaking...from the clouds...peaking...

After 3 dismal days of pictureless doom and gloom.
It gratefully looks like the sun will rise to shine another day in the Muldoon household. 
Tonight when I heard the man giving out to my sister as how the medication that kept him from choking to death last night...gave him hallucinations, I said to myself...that man is going to live!!!!
And, he was complaining about happy hallucinations....
I could have used some of those last night!!!
The caregivers do not like the awesome polyester polka dot sheets that I bought to comfort my dear man.
I explain that this is the new and newly popular kind of polyester that helps one slide in the bed but does not draw.....They do not agree..
 I have given in...no more flannel pillowcases for his feet either...they are hot....temperature wise, that is...
Last week before I was smacked by asthmatic bronchitis,
 I made some cotton woodwind pillowcases for him. 
 I also ordered one yellow hospital bed sheet 100% million count cotton for his bed.
Because I am a saint and because they would not give me the free shipping as I told you before...
.I just had to throw in a book.  They begged me.
It all arrived today as the sun started shining on Truesdale once more.

JL...just as I am munching on some healthy, unfamiliar chocolate like substance delivered today,
 I am called into his room.
He feels like throwing up.  I have just called the Hospice nurse to come out..
Good thing that I said..peaking...

The personal pitiful pictureless pissy post


No pictures.
Mr.O'Quilts is so sick.  He was awake all night again,  I was up with him putting meds in his peg tube to loosen the mucus at 3 am.  Trying to suction what he should be able to cough up by himself if he did not have that nasty horrid ALS...motor neuron disease and muscles all atrophied in his throat. He is so exhausted from trying to cough
I want the calvary...but I already have it.
I have wonderful caregiver and friend Stephanie to care for my man.  She came in this morning.  I have friends to bring food and shop for us, I have fabric.  I have dear Michael who took Evan for the weekend.  I have everything.
But, the calvary cannot fix this.
Terror in my heart.

Friday, January 9, 2015

What a difference a day makes...

I mean, what a difference a few hours make...
 I just finished block six..Mr.O'Quilts is coughing like mad.  We have been using the Cough Assist machine all night.  After I put the Trilogy breathing mask on tonight, he asked if I had the baby monitor on...(thank you Carol for going out in the night and buying one and putting it on my porch...hugs)  I did..but every time there was the slightest noise, I was up and at um...Mama Bear was on it..
Mama Bear was so on it, that often, he was not even awake and some of the time, it was my own wheezing that woke me...Jeeze Louize.
I have taken to sleeping in my clothes.
  Finally, I just got up...I am on Prednisone after all...thus we have block six, nicely finished
.
 Once up with my vino tinto, he did need more help...a pill or two under his tongue was not enough.  He needed cough medication.  First my arthritis would not let me open the child proof top..Finally, he tried to drink a sip of the medication and could not swallow.  Feeding tube time...omg 
  I have avoided that like the plague..but necessity was ...you know..and he walked me thru it.  I put the water and cough syrup into the feeding tube like a perfect student. 
I think he feels a bit less vulnerable with me sitting here sewing...but the first school bus comes at 6 am...and it is now 2 am, as I wheeze away...hmmm
 Darling Evan is 9 and a half.  He considers himself quite grown up.  As an almost adult..hmmm, he prides himself on helping his beloved granddaddy.  He has learned the cough assist machine.  I asked him if he wanted to learn the feeding tube.  I told him about it.  He pondered, then he decided that that part was probably for 13 year olds...
Emily is still so sick...Actually, I am not much better..  Cotton and Steel, the American way...just one foot in front of the other.
 Grateful that I listened to the doctor and reduced my stress????.
And, as my friend Jenny says...if I need more help, Mrs. Hughes and Mr. Carson only work 6 nights a year and they just might be available...I should really put a call out.  Stay tuned.

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Never Fear...

We are still here......
Pink block finished last week..today's  preview..
My dear man is stable....His dear wife..not so much!!
Asthmatic bronchitis again sooo sick. Doc said reduce stress.)(*&(*^(^
Em upstairs with the flu.
The way of the world.
10 degree temperature in Charlotte this morning!!  Kids on the bus at 6:00 am.
Rosie the Riveter speaking!!

Saturday, January 3, 2015

Quilt Love # 3489038956

I have waited so long to start this quilt.  I love it just like I thought I would.
This block is large...14.5 inches.  I am crazy about the shade of blue and the
Cotton and Steel fabrics I have been saving up.
 And, I am delighted about the way the block is coming together.

This is a wonderful weekend..so relaxing.  Doing just what I like to do.
I gave myself permission to start a new project even with tons of UFO's.
This is the first time ever, ever, ever that I have made a quilt using just one line of fabric.
Twenty blocks are needed.  I am doing each one individually to savor the moment:)
Himself reports that he is feeling decline in his right arm and hand.  His left one is pretty much useless.
Reaching for a glass of water, or for the suction machine is harder.  
Also, he is struggling a bit more in swallowing and breathing.
Today, he said that he is starting to feel more anxiety and requesting more Ativan.
 
We had two wonderful caregivers all day today from 9 to 6.  And, they cleaned my screened in porch and did laundry and dishes as well as caring for my man. 
 I am so very lucky.
So hard to grasp that we each have our own journey in life.
Hugs to you all out there who lift me up.
xxoo


Friday, January 2, 2015

The stuff that January Second is made of...


Tonight is awesome..
.Everyone has gone somewhere but my man and me and the caregiver...
Peace and quiet.  I have started to sew:)
I have kept this Jeni Baker pattern, Flower Power on hand just for this fabric.
 Last summer when Cotton and Steel first came out, of course I bought some...
Tonight I cut out 160 blue four inch squares.  A big achievement for me.


...I have a new pact with my friends for 2015...
#1.  Drink one glass of water first thing in the morning and...
 #2 Set the timer for 5 minutes for organizational contemplation....
So not my style.
 Peer pressure, I started on 1-1-15... When.I started #2, I found this in a sewing drawer..
My grandmother's curlers!!
What would Grandma do?????
  Evan has announced that the park is for young kids, and 9 was too old.
He and his lunch..see bag wrapped..went into the tree.
FYI, this is a very grown up way of lunching.


Sujata Shah  of Root Connections blog has published a book on which her latest blog is based. I encourage you all to see what it is all about.
 The book has great reviews and when I get a grip, I will get it too:)
http://culturalfusionquilts.blogspot.com/

A huge thanks to Cousin Ann and O' brother in-law Kevin for caring so about the caregivers by taking the girls out to dinner...We had a wonderful time feeling loved and feeling normal.xxoo
Thank you for all your comments and emails and love.  We are peaceful tonight and carrying on!
xxoo
Even in a world that's being shipwrecked, remain brave and strong.
Hildegard von Bingen

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Goodbye 2014

 The last day of 2014 brings our Evan learning to sew.  At nine and a half, he has been begging me to teach him.
 As I have no patience, I had thought of hiring it out...I did not have to. 
 He was a first rate sewist from the get go.  He had not looked at this machine before, yet he had it threaded and plugged in before I even got into the room.  He had his right shoe off...ha ha...I always sew barefoot.  I put the speed on slow and off he went.  I helped him with the first one and part of the second..When I left to attend to Granddaddy, he had done several more by himself..I am so so proud.!!!
 Picture fuzzy, but not the boy...ironing his strips toward the center block, spray starch and all.
 I have had these charms cut out for him for awhile, knowing he was interested. 
 My original intention was a disappearing nine-patch..hence the red middles. 
 Now, I am thinking for a beginner's success, a plain nine  patch should do...
It is for his own bed...all action characters..
In other less happy news...things with my dear man are stressful.  As he declines, his care is takes much more energy and focus.  We are all burned out.  Although the caregivers are excellent, today we had a no- can- come- last minute deal with no replacement for the holiday tomorrow.
 The detail and time it takes to care for the Mr. is extensive, and getting worse. 
 He needs the cough assist more...I am training Evan for that too. 
 There is a lot I cannot do with my back and arthritis.  He needs massages for his dead muscles, toileting, range of motion exercises...as he looses weight, he needs repositioning for comfort...that I cannot do.
  His Trilogy machine must be put on just so, etc.
  The emotional part of this is devastating for the entire family.  We really need a few days away in respite, but that will not happen.  We need more caregivers who care and are responsible. We need me getting braver.  I was helping my sister tonight at 11 with toileting and all that comes with that and I started to feel dizzy.  I decided that a beer and blogging would help..and so it did. 
 Cousin Ann is still here, but she leaves on Friday. She has been so great helping with the kids and even putting on the Trilogy mask. 
 We need a respite CNA that we can trust.  It is going to get worse and I do not know what we are going to do.  If it were morning I would say celebrate the positive and one day at a time.  But this post is going out as the last post of 2014 and it is 11:41 pm...so I am probably doing a negative whining thing
...It still feels good to get it out...
A New Year is like a new baby...there is hope for the future and something to look forward to.  I know that there is no cure for ALS...but there are other things in life that can be happy and uplifting...
So Happy New Year to that part...to hope and appreciation...to friendship and love.
 A Very Goodbye to  2014 and a Very Welcome to 2015
xxoo

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Just Today's Musings.....

Grief is exhausting.  I spend a lot of time napping..I did get these done in time for Christmas.  Saint Ava, queen of the nurses...angel from my mother...collects hens...Ha...of course even with a stash like mine, I had to take from my sister's stash!!  Ha!
 For Ava only...the fried eggs for the lining:)
 Then for dear BB Muggs...the Christmas sail away...all gifted in time!!
Today Muggs took the kids...from 10 to 4...ALL the kids...Saint Muggs. Immediately I went right back to bed.  Just taking one child out of the mix during this winter break is helpful, never mind all of them.
My dear man is stable.  He sits in the bed all day sleeping and watching sports. We have the best caregivers ever and he is so well taken care of.  Once in awhile he gets a visitor for a short while.  Now that the blood clots have moved out of the way, he can tolerate that better.  Although, talking is exhausting for him.
In the hour I have left before the wildness descends again...I have bordered a small scrap busting quilt top from two years ago.  Just to be able to do something other than pillowcases with my poor focus is such a thrill. 
 I hear Steph, the caregiver in the next room with the Cough Assist machine...1..2...3, 1..2..3, she is putting on the Fentanyl morphine patch  and I realize, still again, how blessed I am.... with help  and with friends.
And things to look forward to....Cousin Ann comes in tonight and two
O'Sister-in-laws come in on February 4th  Yeah!!
xxoo