Showing posts with label Emily camping. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Emily camping. Show all posts

Sunday, May 26, 2019

The Same Old Boring Rant....I need it, you do not.!!

Can you imagine, my girl and her man think this is fun.
With no sewing machine around????
 Tillamook State Forest 
Ten month old family wolf...named Rosie...on a hike and in a tent with my girl and her man
Portland is a great outdoor place.  Youth is great too!!
This is Rosie's first real hike and first time in a tent...wow..

Trying to make a sad day more cozy.
My man moved his hospital bed into my office
and our lives changed forever.
This was three years ago...He has been gone 4 years.

I feel sad that no one will ever say to me...again..
"Do not worry sweetheart, we still have each other"

I think I cannot do this anymore without my dear man.
Then, I say...what makes you think he is not here, somewhere...still watching and caring..?
He sent Eamon home, didn't he??

He said, You cannot raise these kids alone...you are too old.
I said, " Watch me..."
When I am weaker...I say..Why didn't you tell me you were going to die
Tuesday morning at 7 am  ????

Today I struggle with fear... a knee replacement operation.
Not an operation on my heart...not a feeding tube..not an amputation.
I am a brave woman wannabee.

Then I say, it is only because of this time in the world that these kinds of surgeries are available at all.
Or I would be in a wheelchair in more pain, yesteryear...

Today is Sunday..I am taking my thankful self outside in the sun to read.
I am reading, The Moment of Lift , by Melinda Gates.
Today I am choosing to sit under a tree in my beautiful back yard...
reading a book with two cats and a dog.

No sewing motivation for me....

Oh, well...I will be courageous..
Week set up for my comfort...
Monday lunch bday party
Tuesday night MQG
Wed day meeting
Wed night IQ
Thursday lunch
Thursday night OMG  OMG  OMG
Friday morning ...the knife
Thank you for listening...
Tonight I needed a rant..xo