Gifting as Solace

My mother said that the people who are the least likable need the most love...Not sayin...but here is a potholder for Dylan's 6:30 am bus driver...Guess she is not a morning person...lol

 Coasters for the beloved school staff..

I made 15 so no one would be left out. ..all different

I am trying to be brave and strong and true..but it is not working out as planned.

Dear me...oh, dear me...

Got a letter in the mail that in one week they are taking away the Medicaid for the three children.No one answers the phone at social services.  They say I was non-compliant???

My guess is that the week after my husband died when I was all in a dither and hurting all over, they wanted me to go downtown for a court hearing for the children.
 I just could not do this..no energy...all depleted from a funeral and a death and arthritis...Did they care???
 Oh, no they did not and the state is taking it out on the three children.

Dear me.

And, then...my dear man's social security and pension is frozen as they try to work out the money that I will be getting...hmmmm...Do I need this???  Oh, no I do not.

All...says the queen of the whine!!!  Blah Blah Blah.

My daughter is now in Ireland with her man to funeral number two.  Mr. O'Quilt's ashes have gone home to Ireland and they will be interned there with the three other brothers who have died.

..It is too much for me.  Even though it is the right thing...emotionally...it is just too much.

And, now I cannot self medicate with fabric sales..Budget time...again...

 

So trying to get a grip..I miss him so much.  I think it is just a mistake...a nightmare...but , no..it is true.

And, how did it go down 6 weeks ago??

He had his Trilogy breathing mask on.  His chest was going up and down so we thought he was resting.

When the Hospice nurse came and took off the mask...He was gone.

The machine was making the chest go up and down.

Gone.

Guess I am obsessing...Going to bed now with Rin Tin Tin and Garfield.

Finally I got my hair cut.  She said that I had more grey hair than ever before...Really???
Thank you...
TBTG my group came tonight.  I think that they love me anyway!!!
And, thank you dear readers for humoring me..
Tomorrow is another day.

PS...Dylan fell out of bed again.  I think I want to be like Dylan...
Nothing bothers him at all....Wakes up with a smile each morning.