And, the Good News Is.......

After 6 months of waiting, my widow social security benefit finally came through.
 Celebrate!!!!....Back pay too.

Of course, it went into the wrong account...but,, OK then...$$$$ is here!

Fall is here as well.

I did not think I could do autumn without my dear man.

Fall came anyway.  If Ever I Would Leave You

Evan put up all the decorations...great boy!!
And, Evan goes to sleep with the classical music station, just like Granddaddy did.
Love that boy!!

I am sick...ugh, grrrrr.
Gotta cold...gotta sore throat and gotta cough.
Started asthma treatments right away, cuz I know where this always takes me.
Did I say, ugh and grrrrr??
I have cancelled everything for this week.
Two widows groups, the kids' therapy appts, lunches,
.... and even my beloved Wednesday night quilting group.
I am for self-care so this cold will not end up asthmatic bronchitis.

My sister spotted these at IKEA
the  FINNBY bookcase
Doesn't it scream, stack fabric here???? Doesn't it??
Well They are $30 bucks each...Two for me and one for her, for a housewarming present.
And she will assemble them, that is more great news.

 I am trying to make "that" room my own..
Shunning the sounds of  the life support equipment of ALS
For color. for fabric and for my own use.
I so love red.
My husband has now been diagnosed 2 and 1/2 years, including the 6 months dead..
Therefore, it has been 2 and 1/2 years that I have been hysterical in disbelief.
The pain lingers, the fog is still here...mud brain.
I am still so exhausted.
Every day the loss hits me more and more.
I must make my house my own.
I must start with the fabric.