Thursday, May 14, 2015

The Courage to control what I can...

Today's grief work...cutting up my dear man's shirts to make a quilt.  First I cut off the collar, cuffs and seams.  Next, I cut it all into 4 inch strips for this 16 patch block.
Catharsis for me as I think of my love....

I am four weeks a widow.

Working with the energy obtained through pure determination, I am driving my exhausted self to the university three days this week to take workshops in order to maintain my license. 
 Every two years, I need 40 credits...The past 22 months, I got nothing...June is looming as the deadline.
I will do this...I will...I have done, so far this week:

 *.AIDS/HIV and substance abuse
*Ethics in Substance Abuse
* Groupwork planning
*Transgendering in Substance Abuse.
*Adolescent Violence
*Caregiving in ALS

 Every day once home from these workshops, I fall right into bed, leaving Stephanie to take care of everything else.  Thank you Stephanie...never ever leave me.
Tomorrow is the last day and then I will sleep in my awesome handmade bed for quite a long time.
Looking forward to IQ group Sit and Sew on Saturday where I have to do nothing but sew.


Michele Bilyeu said...

Oh dear woman! You are doing great and trying so hard.Hang in there it will get easier..not for a while..but it will!!! Hugs to you

smazoochie said...

You are a bold & brave woman.
Not the same as cutting a spouse's shirts, but when I cut my parents' shirts, I found it very emotional taking the buttons off.

ES said...

Your 16 patch looks lovely, it's such a great idea to make something meaningful from your husbands shirts. Look after yourself with all the studying! You must be exhausted.

Rachaeldaisy said...

You're amazing! Wishing you strength to get through the workshops. Stephanie is an angel!

Debby said...

WOW, OH WOW!!!!! Do you never ever stop? Your memory quilt will be priceless, what a wonderful gift to pass on to those sweet grandbabies :)