Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Stormy Weather

Random love from yesteryear...
This quilt...gifted to my friend Judy.
 
 Newborn Lynsey, now 7..
Granddaddy, Lynsey and Evan...now 11
My favorite cat, Milito...insisting who is boss....Milito long gone too
 Eamon and Lynsey...OMG..all seem so young
Eamon was there at all the births...helping lift her out..
My DIL...sisters
 Multitasking Granddaddy
 My favorite snowball

Oh..Grief...Why now??
This morning after taking the three children to their camp,
I came home and sat in my recliner, blinds down.
One black dog at my feet, one yellow cat on my lap.
I napped. I cried. I sat. I napped again.
At noon I rolled out of my chair for lunch.

I shook myself and checked my daily list.
I bought new tennis shoes.
I walked less than 10 minutes on the treadmill.
I felt hopeless at it and very very very sore.
(Not having walked in 5/6 years...ouch)
I bought two tomatoes for $3...ouch again.
I had my hair cut.
I read Dylan a story or 5.
I called an app store lady in the Philippines who taught me how to remove an app from my phone???
Then how to re-install the new one..!!!
I did it...after 10 long instructional minutes...
Mudbrain!!

I could not throw off the despair.
15 months gone vs. 37 years together.
I see my dear man everywhere.
I looked for all my gratitude.
I found it plentiful.
Doom persisted.
I could not sew.
I did not eat ice cream, nor chocolate.
Instead I am telling the world.
I am telling you.
xxoo

4 comments:

Dora, the Quilter said...

What bright shoes?

Are you by any chance taking Vitamin D-3?

Gisela Suski said...

You did a lot today, considering. Love the photos.

Rachaeldaisy said...

Good on you for walking!! and for being strong and not having chocolate. It's lovely to see family photos, happy memories shared with us.

Karaquilts said...

I always feel honored that you have shared a special treasure when you post the loving, happy family photos of days and years gone by. I smile with you when I see them and understand your tears. and about those tennis shoes ~ ~ I worked with a weight loss program at one time and the philosophy was to just put the shoes on your feet. If you don't wear them, you won't move, so ten minutes is far better than 0 minutes!!! and it's too hot right now to open the door very far! Keep up the great work :)