Mother....Is that you??

It is the same roller coaster...!!  I thought I would see you here.

Oh, they say, same church, different pew...

Mr. O'Quilts and my mother...

All the questioned doctors say that large blood clots in both lungs is a life threatening situation for anyone.  No doctor wants to take away hope..so they say things like...We judge outcomes by 30 to 60 days, not 5 days.  Or, expect a bumpy road...or he already was quite impaired, so we usually do not expect miracles...but do not lose hope.  

When  doctor looks into the hopeful eyes of a relative, it must be very hard to deliver grim statistics and watch the eyes downcast.

And then there was my mother who almost died 4 times before she fell out of her wheelchair and broke her neck.  Remember when the doc gave her three days and I called in the family only to be told by my mother that she took the wrong train...??  She enjoyed another 2 years.

I remember that I am not in charge in this life..

Hope vs. realism???  Are they counterproductive...probably not.

I feel shaky.  It is hard to grasp the details...Adrenaline keeps me going now....doing what has to be done.

Meeting the Hospice nurse tomorrow at 10 am.

Every cell in my body is on alert.

My Dear Heart...