Friday, August 30, 2019

The Fabric Fairy Comes Again

I really, really, really love fabric fairies.
They warm my heart

My sister and I took a few favorites....and now we will be
Spreading the love on Wednesday night.
Prayers for my Florida peeps who rode Hurricane Andrew with me,
 under mattresses et al....many moons ago...Go away Dorian.
My heart still trembles with the unknown and the fear.

No sewing for me today...just fabric patting and snoozing.

Last night I woke at 3 am...wondering where my husband was.
Why had he not come to bed yet?
Maybe he was in the bathroom?
Then, I realized he had been dead for 4 years.
This shook me to my core.
I felt sick, cancelled my day and stayed in bed.

I was not angry, I was sick in my heart.
Although, grief brings with it tons of anger...It gets displaced on innocent
folks, the cashier at the grocery store, family and friends who are nothing but nice,
It gets displaced on ourselves in a grumpy kind of way.
Staying in bed today saved me...and probably the neighborhood as well!!
Today, it was Boo and me...against the world.


Cherie said...

Oh bless you love. My heart ached for you when I read your post. I hope your day in bed soon had you back on track. x

Susan Dunne-Lederhaas said...

Oh dear Diane..Loss is so painful! I feel for you..Go pet your fairy fabrics and let them bring you peace of mind..It is a beautiful day outside, go get some rays! Susan D-L

dutchcomfort said...

So sorry to hear this. A day in bed sounds like a solution. I hope you feel a little bit better now. Grieving is hard work. I sometimes dream about people I lost that once I wake-up it feels so real untill I realize the hard truth. Take care!

Mystic Quilter said...

I'm pleased you had littlre Boo for comfort - animals are the best, they seem to know when they are needed.